Posted By Klutzy Shutterbug on May 19, 2010

And I’ll keep getting back up.  My blog started out as a cool idea that life just keeps stepping in the way of. I admire those that can update with any semblance of regularity and still have witty things to say day after day.

Let me fill in some huge gaps from the previous 3 months of my absence. Its likely that everyone that reads here already will be bored to tears as they already know but for anyone that I may reel in with my catchy word salad (or verbal diarrhea as it will probably be) heres the scoop.

Back in January I tried to start this picture a day idea that I’ve seen floating around the interwebz. What I didn’t know is what the month of Jan would hold in store for me. Life had been a little hectic for the previous 6 months or so…The Nerd got out of the military due to medical issues and life began a whirlwind of changes. In those changes meant moving home. Home for us being Fayetteville, NC where most of our family resides in surrounding communities. Home also meant helping take care of my mom. See, she had COPD, Diabetes and a host of other health issues that required use of oxygen 24/7. Our first 6 months of being home were great and I felt like a “whole” family. My parents came to my house to eat, we went and did things and enjoyed being with each other. In the middle of this happiness were lots of stays in hospitals, trips to UNC-Chapel Hill for experimental drugs and days that my mom would barely get out of bed.

We got to spend our first Christmas together in awhile and host it in our home. Christmas eve my parents stayed the night here and we woke up to have a wonderful breakfast and lots of laughs opening presents. However, there was a cloud that hung over our heads. Mom had called Christmas eve to say she wasn’t feeling well and needed some help. Her color was odd, her breathing labored and her energy gone. We tried to get through Christmas thinking this was just a bad couple days for her and she would come out of it. On the 27th of December we admitted her to the hospital where she spent time in ICC and a regular room being given her different options.

Our next weeks were spent keeping her spirits up and hoping that there was an end in sight this time. That brings me to a picture a day for Jan 1-6.

On Jan 16, 2010 at around 2:45am my mother lost her fight. For her last 2 days we stood by her bedside…watching her fight and when she passed it was serene and quiet, her closet friends and family by her side and the nurses letting us have our time to say goodbye.

The days after are sort of a blur. The funeral process is not anything I care to go through again anytime soon and my house was flooded with flowers, food, friends and family. It is honestly times like these that I know things happen for a reason. I spent so much time panicking and stressing about our life changes but in the end, I was here to watch my mom drift out of this world…a bittersweet time I will carry with me forever.

So now you know why I’m so behind…yet again. I have realized there is a possibility that for me, in this moment, blogging could be quite cathartic and hopefully I can become a bit more regular…but don’t hold me to that.

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